I know that life isn't fair and all but it is just that life seems to want use me as the butt of its great joke. I started my internship today and it sucks major hairy linty ass. I have accepted that I will not be paid for this shit but damn if I don't get to class today and find out that just about everyone else in my class has an internship that is paid. I don't think this is fair at all. I asked the coordinator to set me up with an internship that would at least give me a small stipend. She told me that I should just take the one that was offered to me because they wanted me and they were a good company. So I took it in good faith. But now I am feeling a little bitter and angry that I am working for free.
It is bad enough with that but I have to dress professionally but I have no damn money. I am broke like a bad joke. To add insult to injury and this is a real injury, a piece of my filling came out. Where am I supposed to get money for that? I am just hoping that I don't get any pain until my next pay period which only happens to be in two weeks. *sob* This shit ain't fair. I work hard and don't complain when they take my taxes (let's be real I am in the tax bracket where they just take there money from me), I read my Bible, I even pray. I mean it isn't on hands and knees but I like to think that My Creator doesn't mind when we talk on the train, while cooking or any of my other duties. But that is something else. My thing is I think I deserve a break. I have gone through plenty of hardships for no good reason. I would really like to know what I am to learn from this. I am tired of struggling while others are just handed the simpler life. I look at friends and relatives who I would love to trade lives with just for a day so I can escape my stress and show them that to complain about having to wait on a bus instead of taking a cab is not real hardship.
I know that life isn't gonna be rosy and sweet and shit but I would just like to have a break in life. You know a positive one not one that involves me breaking a limb or something.
Hang in there girl. One day you're going to look back on these rough times and say Damn, can't believe I want thr all that. ONLY 3 MONTHS TO GO! I remember when I was 3months away from finishing my 1st degree, it was the most depressing time. Do you know for sure that they don't pay or this just came from the coordinator? Cuz if not, you could probably 'innocently' ask Head Honcho if they give a stipend -thereby opening the conversation-and then diplomatically letting him know that some companies pay...this after you feel them out to see in any offence would be taken. Say next week? Don't worry, life is a pendulum, it's just swinging away from you now.